Felix Ever After by Kacen Callender
Published by Balzer + Bray on May 5th 2020
Genres: Young Adult, Contemporary, Queer
“No one else gets to define who I am. Only me.”
This book y’all, this book. When I read this last year I didn’t have the words to describe how much I loved this. And honestly I still don’t, but I’m going to try.
Felix Ever After is a journey of self, of questioning things Felix thought he had already figured out. A journey to self-love and hope.
“I thought I’d already had it all figured out, you know?”
But it’s also a story of love and revenge, it’s messy and it’s sweet. It’s also queer as fuck and touches your heart. Be prepared to cry and have your heart ache, but also to feel hope and happiness.
This amazing character driven story isn’t the easiest read, but the way my heart felt after finishing it, the way I still think about this book even months after finishing it. I still don’t have the words to describe my feelings for this book. I have so many feelings and they’re all tangled up together.
“Just because you don’t understand my identity, doesn’t mean I’m not real. That I don’t exist.”
Kacen Callender’s writing is beautiful and punches you in the gut and I loved it so much. I’m still so overwhelmed whenever I think of this book. I’m still wordless.
All I can say at the end of this review is that: read it, you won’t regret it.
“I’m not flaunting anything. I’m just existing. This is me. I can’t hide myself. I can’t disappear. And even if I could, I don’t fucking want to. I have the same right to be here. I have the same right to exist.”
About the book
Felix Love has never been in love—and, yes, he’s painfully aware of the irony. He desperately wants to know what it’s like and why it seems so easy for everyone but him to find someone. What’s worse is that, even though he s proud of his identity, Felix also secretly fears that he’s one marginalization too many—Black, queer, and transgender—to ever get his own happily-ever-after.
When an anonymous student begins sending him transphobic messages—after publicly posting Felix’s deadname alongside images of him before he transitioned—Felix comes up with a plan for revenge. What he didn’t count on: his catfish scenario landing him in a quasi–love triangle….
But as he navigates his complicated feelings, Felix begins a journey of questioning and self-discovery that helps redefine his most important relationship: how he feels about himself.
Felix Ever After is an honest and layered story about identity, falling in love, and recognizing the love you deserve.
Transphobia, homophobia, alcoholism, bullying, cursing, drug use, emotional abuse, racism, deadnaming, public outing, misgendering, online harassment, catfishing, doxxing, disownment due to sexuality discussed, parental abandonment, and minor medical content.